Episode Merge + 2

[Selene]

On top fo everything knowing that they were trying to organize a split in advance, both through the Nostromo girls and Mother also, so yeah, that went pretty smoothlly.

Why on earth they thought splitting was a smart idea, I have no idea, but OMG! Funny

So now old Sulaco are going to be pissed at Nostromo even more for not going through with their decision to split.

Do old Sulaco come to us now, as this fued ebtween Cherry & Babydoll/I has been sorted. I know Cherry';s initial heat with with me, but Bbaydoll definitely did herself no favours by not communicating any more, which think if it hasnt already really drew this fued to be more about those 2 than I. Anyhow, had Babydoll not won immunity I dare say my name would srtill have been an option, but it would have been Babydoll that Cherry wa focused on.

This weekend is going to be interesting to be sure, and with the back to back TC coming up will really be interesting.

As always.

What do they want?
How are they going to do it?
What am I going to do about it?

[Selene]

Something doesnt fee right here.

The scramble hasnt been anywhere near as much as it shouldbe. Like literally noe 1 msg from between Claire & Noxy, havent heard from Xena in hours, T-X si being hella shifty, the names that supposedly are doing the rounds are Bbabydoll and Kaylee, but wh knows. Noone much is saying anything, like at all. Jut too damn quiet.

Props for Jessica in particular if this is all just a ruse and ablindside is happening.

I honestly cant believe i am in this position, because Babydoll cant be arsed to update her 1:1 chats with like even her closest allies, so no wonder others are going to doubt her sometimes. Alliance msgt is every bit as important, you know? But more than that is the neglect of those that have been aligned with those voted out that may be butthurt. Its basic Survivor 101.

As for Kaylee, what the actual fuck? Seriously, if she did really tell Xena, 'play your own game and go get your own optons', like I sorry girl. I do love you, but that is just the worst thing I have ever heard of. I really have not seen that side of Kaylee myself, and obviously dont know the full story, but surely Kaylee cant be that daft. She had said a few things in public than has made me wince, seeing how it could be interpreted, and maybe I am blinded a bit to it, because I have only really seen the best side of Kaylee, but it is hard to concile these 2 conflicting sides, i just dont know,.

I have tried to win Xena over , to stau in her good graces, to open up the possibility of changing the game up, but if sje ont talk i cant do anything to help her. As for Nox/Claire, I dont know?I have sent them msgs each, but no reply. Something seems up.

Also I sussed out from the Greens on thr QT that they may not all be looking at this current 6 allaince for very much longers. Any alliance thinks ahead, bit apparently not this one. I guess back to back TC is a lot to deal with unto itself, but thinking ahead is part of that. T-X and Alice, but esp T-X failed in that.

Oh, and have planted the seeds of future troubes with Jessica, to question wha T-X is up to, a T-X did offer a F3 deal to Kaylee and Babydoll. Which is believable enough, as if she felt confident of goiug up against those 2. Too early to do much more with it, but the seeds are there.

But in the meantime am still getitng uneasy feelings.

[Selene]

I know I have been simpy horrible with keeping this thing updated. It would have probabaly helped but have had so mch going on in my head the whole time. It really is the sSurvivor experience, because not like tyou can write it all down if you were out there, its ll in yourt head, and for better or worse, thats kind of how I have had things happening in this game, and keeoing track inmy head.

I cant believe how much stuff I have rearranged, alonst on a daily basis because of this game. Even today I was supposed to go swimming with the blind society people, but, *cough cough* called in sick,and with my daughter coming to staytomorrow and the weekend, an dreading how much I am not going to be here but just have to make the nest of it I can, jhaha

I have no idea where I was upto even the last time I updated this thing. Just read above, holy schnikes.

Teah, uneasy feelings turned out exactly as i thought it was going to turn out. Thankfully my social game got me through those couple of TCs, and with people thinking that they could use me. Big mistake.

Anyhow Kaylee & Babydoll go. That leaves 8.

Sulaco come to me with all the mistrust in the world. So I even said to them, look , you want me to prove my loyaty, dont tell me, thinking of course if they really are stupid enough not to include me what did they expect me to do. Not only does Nox say dont trust me, but immediately goes around shopping my name as a possible vote to Nostromo. It seemed to have paniced Alice a bit based on one of her messages, as she seemed to be contemplating it. So I turned on the exasperation and dsperation, they needed my vote, so they got it by including me - but still noone had a group chat with me that whole round. Mistake bitches. Both tribes.

That was fun thoguh, because Jessica hinks she was the one that flipped MOther at that vote. Mother and I had agreed the night before that Mother was going to allow Jessica to flip her for that vote. So Jessica paints a massive target on her back both fr the advantage pay and flipping Mother. Sorry Jessica girl. I love you, but yeah, that wasnt your play. That was Mother and I.

Speaking of which Mother once again, I am sure if not getting enough credit or love in other peoples confessionals and I will be damned if her involvement and contribution is not given the credit it deserves. Just about every single night we have compared notes and decided how to approach the coming day. We consuted each other on every vote, even when voting opposite each other, and becuse w were not fractically msgig each other every 5 minutes but left to trust that w would have each's best interests going, and I hope this stays right through to the end.

Anyhow, so Nox goes.

The Nostromoe decide t is time to onvoilve me in a group chat. But these girls are good. Especially Jessica and Alice. Wow are they good. I loved my time with these girls and I have no doubt I would have gotten to the F5 maybe even F4 with them. But they are tooo good. Just a bit too good.

Besides it was this point the entire game I wa playing for. F7. Especially with fragments of SUlaco v the huge danger that is Nostromo. Time to rally these bitches and get this going. And of course Claire nd Xena did nothing to help themselves in all this. Those passive aggressive comments in the open thread made me pause for a while, but in the wnd they served their purpose even better, becsus it lead to a complete blindside. Again Mother and I had decided this was the time, but it was I that ended up having to do the heavy lifting to get these bitches in line and make them believe I was on the legit, because neither one of them made a single approach to me about doing this. They rolled over and played the strop.

Xena, once I confirmed really played the strop with Nostromo, whihc actually helped divert attention away from what I was doing.

Sorry Alice. blinside. If Alice hadve won immunity, Jessica would have been the one togo. In w way I wish it would have een the other way, because Jessica is always cooking and Alice, wow, i loved talking ravel with Alice. Not to take away from Jessica, but those Alice chats, although not as often as Jessica were ones I really enjoyed the most.

So yeah. Anyhow, Mother was dithering on which of TX and Jessica to go noext. Jessica would remain a massive target has a point. But with 2 TCs t go can we stop her winning immunity at either of these 2? TX on the other hand is downplaying herself so much, can I trust her to stick with us and helptake out Claire at F5? Or would she run her mouth off to Claire, and then she plays the middle?

In a perfect world Jessica goes, Claire goes, TX goes.

Mother, Xena, I F3

Can I win, maybe, agansr those 2 - even TX and Xena I reckon would have a shot. Mother hasnt played the social game as well, but deserves credit. TX has ridden coattails the whole time behind Alice and Jessica and really hasnt been up front with anything. She may get Nostromo votes, but I reckon could mount an argument, just depends on how bitter the jury might be.

But that is a thought fo another day.

Sorry again, Ripley for not having been more attentive. There is loads and loads I havent put in here, but just wanted a quick update. of this.

[Selene]

So nce again have been completelynegligent with this. Anyhow after my previous entry waas mad, as we all now know, the vote ended up going 4-2 with Calire going instead. Although I eould have been good with TX going, Mother mad a good point but the danger Claire posed if left til F4. And she was right.

I had already outinned reasons why Claire would have been a huge jury threat, as she has played a cleanskin game, hasnt hutt anyone, has been very loyal, has kept the blood off her hands, and is very popular, both with the Sulaco Blue crowd and think ven the greens liked her also. Additionally, even though TX has the whole sole survivor of Nostromo thing goiing for he, after what they endured, and having to survive every single TC, think she could be defeated as being prety much a coat tail rider.

I can see why Mother wanted this as well, as taking Claire ut definitely locked her in to a F3 spot as far back as F6, as noone would seriously take her on. Anyway...

So Claire goes, and the only danger about this was the prospect of Jessica winning immunity all the way to the end.

Thank heavens for Xena comong through here at F5, and now we can get Jessica out. She has been a fantastic competitor, but dont think anyone stands a shot against her at the end.

So Claire went.

That leaves 5.

Xenas arguement for winning is that she has been Sulaco blue strong all the way, and this may appeal to Sulaco who have also been loyal. Poss Storm, Nox, Claire. She said Cherry is gong to give her a serve (or vice versa), but its possible Cherry could overook that? idk?

This game has had flaws, as there have been multiple times when she had pissed people off, esp some of the Nostro girls and has been left bewildered all too often by what has been going on. All too often her plans have fallen through, and the one strategical move she can really point to was the merge split, which backfired on her.

TX arguement if she makes it will cntre on beingthhe last Nostro standing and having survived every single TC, a la Denise in Philippines. Even if she has ridden the coattails of Alice and Jessica, she would probabaly still lock the green votes. Again the weakness of her game is that she has riden coattails and been able to take advantage of having 2 bigger threats as a shield. Thevery point that Claire was voted out instead of he should highlight that Claire was more of a threat than her.

Mother's case will centre on strategy. Although has been on the surface at least, on the peripheral of things, she ad I have been in sync strategically for a very long time, while the appearance of being kinfd of on the outs of most of the things in the game, she has had good awareness when she has been here, and has managed to pop up with the occasional immunity win also, and has been social enough to stay in contact with people, but not overly so. So, ironically she could be a big threat at the end also. In fact I think that the others in this game have underestimated her efforts in this as being a little inconsequential but its not hard to see the last 3 votes we have voted together in executing those 3 straight blindsides. And even before that when we were 'on opposite sides' we were still conferrng, comparing notes, consulting each other on the votes etc and basically being double agent.

This also does make her a threat to me, as she may wnt to see me go, but I think unless TX wins immunit at F4, that she will still take me to the end. Do I want to sit next to her though, consideirng how tightly our strategies have interwoven? Well, think there is no denying it I have been fsr more active socially, but this also means that there is so much more blood on my hands.

Jessica would blow us all out of the water if she were kept any further. She has been an invaluable shield for a lng time, and the greens have served their purpose for this now, but she has been incredible, socially, strategically and popped up with critical wins also, and if she got to the end would stomp pn everyone elses chances, so she really does have to be the one that goes here. Love you girl, but sorry.

So Xena wins that challenge, and OMG, the one thing I was dreading happening after the Claire bot was that Jessica win this last challenge. But with Xena with immunity, the opportunity is now for Jessica to go.

It has to be.

Sorry Jessica.

[Selene]

Mother is going to win this game if TX survives this, I think.

TX has to go, as that frees up the 4 green votes on the Jury, but judging by the voting comments last night, and judging by the fact TX is not talking to me - idd not send me a single msg in 6hrs before TC and have literally had 1 line since then thsi moirngin, saying she is sick - its pretty clear that she has no interest in talking to me, even to the point of just being civil, much less would consider an alternative target other than me. And Xena wont vote Mother, as she sees her as someone she can beat - her mistake, because Mother will carve her up, especially when it comes to strategy, and its not as if Xenas social game has been awe inspiring. Its been solid, but not dazzling. TX is a bit threat to get the sentimental vote for being the sole survivor of a 9-4 merge minority, and having attended every TC. I said it before, anyone who underestimates Mother is a damn fool.

Even if I survive thid and make the FTC, I dont think I have enough to get me over the line at the end, yet again. The rust of my game was all too apparent and by the time I started really firing, from overplaying to underplaying and everything in between. Never really hit thart sweet groove.

Gahh, whatever.

[Selene]

Any miniscule hope TX had of convincing me that Xena should be the vote just vanished:

Apr 18, 2016 9:06:40 GMT tx said:

A whole lot of nothing in that gibberish she talks in Just that Jessica was big threat like Alice and that's why she had to go but we all knew that

I don't get anything from her, never did and probably never will to be honest. I do know Alice/Cam/Jess don't want to vote for her either.

So why would I want to not keep Xena, if those 3 girls are NOT wanting tohave to vote for her? I mean she could just be talking out of her hole, especially on behalf of Cameron who was voted out at the merge, but if those girls have any influence on Cam, and they then vote as a block, of course am going to want to have Xena there, so they dont vote for her. Which leaves thise votes up for grabs between Mother & I. I aso cant believe that Xena is still saying noone respects Mother.

Seriously, I am going to give credit where credit is due if I get to FTC, and at least acknowledge the part that Mother played in this game. She deserves that, and it could cost me potential votes, if I get to the final, but Mother played this game, and deseves to be acknowledged for her efforts here,and thios was iterally after I had said to her not to underestimate the game Mother played.